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Friday, December 10, 2010

I FEEL LIKE CRYING.....

what's wrong???..tibe2 je nk nangis...psl exam statistic td ke??...actually no la...paper statistic td alhamdulillah..bg org yg mls bace nota2 cam ak nie...conclusionnye bole la jwb...*wlpn td ade gak yg kena peluru sesat...*..hehe...tgk je la result kuar nanti...arap2 leh score la...utk dpt A subject nie...amin....

ntahla...lame da sakit kepala ak yg 'menggila' nie x dtg...tibe2 sampai bilik lps solat isyak skjp td sakit kepala dtg...bengang ohhh...painkiller pon xde...lame da ak x g klinik ambik ubat...nk mkn paracetamol cam mls je...huhu...(tp leh lg tulis blog)...tp seriously, rase nk pecah je kepala nie..kalau sakit kepala ak mmg dahsyat la...tp alang2 da selalu kena,,ak still leh bertahan la...

may be tension kot...byk bende sgt pikir....kdg2 rase nk nangis je...tp air mata ak terlalu mahal utk keluar...mmg susah kalau nk nangis...kena ade something yg btol2 touching la br leh nangis...(bajet cam kuat semangat la konon)...except la kalau ak story kat mama...mmg time tu confirm nangis la...tp, ak mls nk serabutkan fikiran mama ngan 'masalah' nie....biarlah ak cr jalan penyelesaian sendiri...huhu...

ak yg bermain dgn perasaan sendiri...tanggunglah akibatnye!!...ssh nk tarik balek kalau bab2 nie....mmg sukar............bile la ak boleh escape dr semua nie...kalau ak boleh jerit rase nk jerit je...
PERGI!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!....ak x nak rase ape2 lg...ak nk hidup tenang....tp kenapa ak diuji lg dgn benda nie..............sukar ak nk usir dr dulu sampailah sekarang...peritnye rase cam nie...tanggung beban yg sgt berat....sbb ak mmg x mau terlibat sebelum sampai masenye...

"Ya Allah, Ya Rahman, Ya Rahim...jauhkanlah ak dari sebarang kemaksiatan..buangkanlah perasaan ini...dan berikanlah perasaan ini kpd yg berhak kelak.."


note: it's better for me to sleep right now...may be i'm depressed....

Wednesday, December 8, 2010

BILE INGAT BLEK.....

Assalamualaikum w.b.t...

Now, it has to be realized that i should focus on what i'm doing n learning currently...seriously, i'm not focusing on those subjects...sometimes, i feel like giving up,,,(kdg2 rase gak yg diri ini terlalu lemah compare wif others)...but i've to think positive...that everybody has talent...on various way....*alang2 menyeluk pekasam, biar sampai ke pangkal lengan*...so, i must take the risk because of my choice....take the challenge Mimi...CHAIYOK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!...

Bile fikiran jahat datang, mcm2 ak rasa...menyesal, sedih, marah, kecewa, rendah diri..n mcm2 lg..but the road has taken..i've to face n solve everything...ye lah,,kdg2 ak rase ak nie cam useless sgt...tp bile ak renung balek,,fikir balek,,kaji balek...actually,,i'm not the worst..ade lg org yg lbh teruk...tp sblm nie ak terlalu fikirkan kesempurnaan,,mengejar keberadaan utk tempat plg atas,,ak jd lupa dgn kemampuan ak...i can't give the best in this particular world...tp x salah kalau ak belajar...at least i gain an experience...knowledge...i realized i should not compete wif others..i should think how can i pass through this challenge...buat ikut kemampuan...buat yg terbaek yg mampu....mgkin pengalaman nie amat berguna satu hari nnti....who knows..

"God has created something for a reason..."

it's beyond the expectation...sblm nie pon ak x pernah terfikir utk belajar benda alah nie...tp tibe2 ak teringat blek zmn kecik2 dulu...mase umur 3 4 tahun dulu...sbnrnye talent tu da ade pd mase kecik lg..
"Nanti besar adik nk jadi ape??" soal mama, ketika ak masih berumur 3 atau 4 thn camtu..

"Adik nak jd arkitek, adik nak buat rumah," jawabku yg ketika itu masih tidak mengerti ape2 pon..
pada mase itu ak hnye tahu sepahkan brg2 mama cam sabun, syampu, ubat gigi, sabun basuh pinggan, span n so on...ak sepahkan semua brg tu ak buat bangunan, rumah...kire model making la...haha...best time tu...huhu...mama layan je kerenah ak mase tu..x nak bg ak buat perangai..ye lah mase kecik2 dulu peel mmg 'baik' lah....rase malu bile igt zmn kecik2 dulu..betapa buruknye perangai...huhu...so, mama kire target ak dlm bidang arkitek la...abang target jd engineer...arwah kakak plak target jd doktor....

bile dah masuk sekolah rendah,,ak nk jd engineer plak..sbb tgk abg ak ambik mechanical engineering kat UTP dulu..so, nk ikut jejak langkah die lah...hoho...die ambik mechi, ak nk ambik aerospace...sbb mase tu duk giler tgk citer superhero cam ultraman, flashman, power rangers..sbb byk pangkalan dorg kat angkasa....haha...lawak..lawak...

pastu bile da masuk sekolah menengah,, ak nk jd doctor plak...may be sbb selalu ikut arwah kakak pergi hospital...kira unit hemodialysis hospital kota bharu tu kire da jd rumah kedua ak...sampai staf2 kat situ pon da kenal ak...even i was not the patient..haha...homework pon ak buat kat situ...huhu...kat situ jgk la ak byk belajar istilah2 perubatan...ak knl alat2 perubatan...mama pon da jd expect..kalah nurse2 n MA kalau bab2 mesin hemodialysis n kidney problem nie...

pastu mase form 3...tibe2 bertukar plak nk jd pharmacist...mase tu kire minda ak da terbukak dlm dunia sains kesihatan nie...tambah lg bile da tau course2 kritikal...medicine, engineering, pharmacy n so on...kire azam kuat nk penuhi bidang2 kritikal tu...masuk form 4...ak mule goyah...main goal nk medic...tp ak wat back-up plan...sbb da tau sukar utk ak excel dlm subject sains....tp sbb ego,,mulut ak ttp mengatakan medic fokus utama....biaselah budak SBP...mind set nye hanyalah medic, engineering, pharmacy....jrg sgt kalau ditanye akan jawab nk amik bussiness ke law ke....hnyelah kumpulan minoriti....
  • plan choices course mse zmn spm dulu..
  1. medicine
  2. pharmacy
  3. dentistry
  4. dietetic
  5. chemical engineering
  6. civil engineering
  7. accountancy
  8. quantity surveying
  9. banking
  10. electrical engineering
haha...ni adalah course2 yg menjd pilihan ku..(susunan mengikut ranking)....
  • hala tuju lepas spm...(part 1)
  1. IB (international baccalaureate)/SAM (south australia matriculation)/AUSMAT (australian matriculation)...n program2 yg seumpamanya..
  2. MBBS (Bachelor of Medicine and Bachelor of Surgery)..russia, ireland, ausie n etc..
  3. after get degree...HO (housemanship)
  4. MO (medical officer)
  5. specialist........Anesthetist (pakar bius)
  • part 2
  1. PASUM (pusat asasi universiti malaya)/CFSIIUM/ KPM matriculation/Asasi sains UiTM
  2. degree...PASUM/KPTM/UiTM...MBBS/MD..dentistry...dietetic...chem engin....CFSIIUM..ikut course yg dpt mase foundation..(aim mse nk apply..Allied Health sciences, Bio SC n Architecture n Environmental Design)
hahaha...kelakar kalau ingat blek zmn tu...bkn maen lg semangat kalo bab2 nie...tp kerajinan utk study nye zero...tp alhamdulillah..dpt uia..kire ade dlm target gak la....so,,,,study lah mimi...!!..mlm esok ade mid term exam statistic....jgn maen2 la,,,even 2 credit hours pon...ni penentu utk tlg nk apply QS nnti...huhu..insyaAllah..i'll fight abis-abisan utk dptkan QS...

Ya Allah...bantulah daku...berikanlah ape yg ak hajatkan....amin....

note: saya sedang belajar n tanam minat dlm dunia nie...saya cube beri hati utk semua nie...yes, i admit,,, i'm too slow in this particular subjects...i need a bit more time.....give me the chance...






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