BINGKISAN TGH2 MALAM BUTA..

I feel like giving up right now. But i can't. I think it's very useless learning this thing..(Ya Allah, how dare i feel like this!!!).. i've no feelings to proceed anymore. i'm tired of being like this. This is not my life. This is not ME!!...it's too difficult when doing something not because of sincerity of our heart. Automatically, the quality produce will not as high as demand... i've tried to love, i've tried to put my soul on it...but, it seems far n far...yang tinggal hanyalah semangat utk complete kan task...i don't want to fail...sorry, this is not my soul...i can only give what i can give...anyone, don't force me, k!!..

Sabar...

sekarang i've to be patient...not only for GC..but in all aspects...aku bukanlah seorang yg penyabar sebenarnya, tapi dlm hidup ni aku perlu belajar bersabar. belajar mengalah. mengalah dgn org lain. tapi, kdg2 memakan diri jugak. Dan di sini lah kesabaran itu perlu..when we loose our patience,,everything will change n become worse.

Jangan pedulikan ckp org...

Bkn bermakna x mau dgr pendapat org. this is not what i mean. hanya kita yg tau kemampuan dan potensi diri kita. org lain hanya tahu bercakap. bkn dorg yg menanggung. biarkan org lain bercakap cz kita x boleh tutup mulut org. dan masa tu, pekakkan telinga klu ape yg mereka sampaikan x masuk dek akal..(klu benda yg baik tu terima je lah,, guna sbg panduan)..

Jangan sesekali menuding jari ke arah org lain..

Yg ni lg satu...klu salah org tu nampaklah sgt..tp diri sendiri pnyer salah sikit pon x sedar..kadang2 bila kita nk tegur org, agak2 lah sikit..guna lah perkataan yg baik. jgn main redah je..ye, mmg betul, niat nk amar makruf nahi mungkar..tp klu cara tu too harsh, sapa pon x boleh terima..kita kena faham character seseorang tu dulu.,jgn terus2 nk hukum dia..ni tak, belum ape2 lg da wat conclusion...kita sbg umat Islam, perlu lah HUSNUZON...di sini, tiada unsur2 nk puji diri ye...sbb ak pon tulis utk diri ak sendiri juga...kita sama2 lah muhasabah diri..

Dengarlah pendapat org lain..

Kita juga perlulah mendengar n menerima pendapat org lain. mendengar n menerima pendapat org lain x bererti kita bodoh,, dungu ke ape..cubalah berlapang dada sikit dgr others opinion..ni tak,, kita je yg leh wat keputusan..klu x ikut, msti mcm2 benda jd...ade nnti yg buat protes secara fizikal, nada percakapan....yg ni mmg den naik menyampah, klu ikutkan hati yg panas bile2 mase je mkn penyepak sulung yg x berapa nk sulung...(wow, ganasnye budak nie!!)...

*tanpa kita sedari, dalam hidup ni kita telah melukakan hati seseorang, membuatkan org menyayangi kita dan sebagainya...

MANA HILANGNYA MOOD AK??

Assalamualaikum dan salam Ramadhan..

Tajuk entry mmg agak xde mood...mmg tengah xde mood skang...xde mood nk wat GC...project terakhir utk sem nie...marker ngn water colour.....argh!!!!!!...nape ak rasa mls sgt nk wat.....??..padahal byk keje...b4 cuti raya sume nk kena settle...GC, assignment com, assignment BTQ...minggu dpn lak, kena wat presentation IBE (assignment kedua), kuiz computer, tasmik BTQ, n of course mdm soh siapkan GC yg task marker ngn water colour + sketch task...hari isnin nie nk start ngn retreat house, saiz A2 punyer!!!!!!!!...

sepanjang minggu nie mmg worst sgt...hari ahad, mase duk terawih, tibe2 mate ak sakit, pedih, gatal...berair x henti2...so, mmg da x leh nk wat ape da mlm tu....time sahur tu, mmg x leh nk celik mata..tp ak still bgn gak turun g m=beli nasi kat kafe kak noni...perut ttp kena isi...hehe...pg, i had GC class...ak tgk cermin...wow!!!..mmg merah giler mata ak....tp ak g gak studio...then, mintak excused ngn Mdm nk g klinik...dpt ak cuti 1 hari...ptg, klas BTQ...mmg x g r...huhu...burn klas ari tu...nsb baek keesokkan harinye (selasa)..nak x nak kena gak g kelas (padahal 1 kelas je...tu pon ptg)...cz ade kuiz IBE...nsb baeklah hari tu mata da ok ckit...x merah da...malu gak ak nk g kelas klu merah mata cam ape.....wlpn classmates ak tu majoritinya geng2 ak...ntahlah...kat studio xde lah segan sgt...tp klas IBE rase lain plak....adeyh!!!!!

okay, nie plak citer hari rabu.....rase da lain mcm da...cam biase la, xde klas pg bgn lewat la ckit....hehe....tp, lps bgn tido tu, rase lain da...tekak da start sakit...klu tekak sakit, petanda r tu...nk demam...huhu...mlm tu bermula lah kisah sakit tekak..perit yang amat....bgn sahur pon cam ape je...sakit bangat!!...yg bestnye, pagi tu (khamis), ak ade presentation BTQ...Ya Allah, betapa sakitnye tekak nk kluarkan suara...mmg aku rasa worst sgt2 presentation...ntah bape la markah ustaz bg kat ak nnti....siyes, ak just aim nk kuarkan suara je...mmg ak x pk benda lain da...huhu...redha je la...blek je trus cari selimut...da x larat rasenye....tp b4 tu kena settle tikar utk iftar jama'ie IDEA...

so, in conclusion, project ak pd mggu lepas mmg xde progress...huhu...keadaan skang, still not in a good condition...but, i have to force myself to work hard...cz deadline da dekat.....cuti raya ni pon mmg x leh nk joli r....kena struggle tuk final exam + touch up n re-do project2 yg rase nk re-do 4 portfolio day...(klu leh B+ pon syukur Alhamdulillah...utk ak yg begitu x pandai berseni halus)...haha....

note: thanx to sape2 yg wish besday kat ak ari tu (9.8.2010)...x kirelah yg call ke, message ke, fb ke, face to face mase terjumpe kat kafe ke, studio ke..ehm2....time kasih bnyk2..tanda ingatan korg kat ak....yg penting org2 yg istimewa pd ak wish..mmg terharu sgt2...hahaha....

First Assignment for Introduction To Built Environment (IBE)

Assalamualaikum and salam Ramadhan to all readers n followers...in this entry i wanna show our 1st assignment for IBE subject...

this is my IBE's classmates...sitting from left: azhar nordin, hasif amin, nasrul arif, zizi zahar, izzat amir, azim and hanis kacok (hanis)..

standing from left: ikma, ida (hidayah), cacacucusicici (aisyah salleh), zty mansor (izzati), aisyah mahmood, nadd (nadia suaid), assila amalina, nabihah and me (mimi)...

tiada dlm gambar: saifuldin and saidatul nazira

Group 3

Venue: AX201

Lecturer: Miss Wan Faizatul Atikah

Ini adalah hasil karya kami...yg poster warna hijau yg dipegang oleh hasif (SAVE THE PLANET) tu adalah kepunyaan group ak...consist of ida, assila, nabihah, ikma and me...(sorry ak x smpt nk snap besar2 poster group kami...ini adalah cetusan idea last2 minute kitorg....klu ak pnyer group just wt mlm b4 klas...start lbh kurang kul 11 mlm sampai kul 3 pg...x sempat nk wat awal2..byk giler kerja nk kena buat..

yg nie plak group zizi n the gang...yg pegang poster tu izzat...group dorg consist of zizi, izzat, hanis n azim..

ni plak group zaty n the gang..yg pegang poster tu zaty n sorg lg tu nadd...ahli yg lain adalah caca, aisyah mahmood n saidatul nazira...

haha...ni yg plg lawa n rajin....yg tgh present tu nasrul n sorg lg kembar dia azhar...(hehe..bile plak dorg kembar nie??)...group members yg lain hasif and saifuldin...

ini merupakan 1st assignment kitorg utk subject IBE nie...walaupun sume wat last minit tp still nmpak kekreatifan masing2....ni lah kami...wlau buta seni sekalipun msti kena cari talent tu..sbb ni adalah life kami...keh3...

pasnie kena generate idea utk second assignment plak...huhu...

note: msti kena dpt A subject IBE nie...amin....

YOU'RE MY EVERYTHING...

Na na na na ...

You're my everything

The sun that shines above you makes the blue bird sing

The stars that twinkle way up in the sky

Tell me I'm in love, when I kiss your lips

I feel the rolling thunder to my finger tips

And all the while my head in a spin

Deep with in I'm in love

You're my everything and nothing

Really matters but the love you bring

You're my everything

To see you in the morning with those big brown eyes

You're my everything

Forever and the day

I need you close to me

You're my everything

You never have to worry never fear

For I am near when I hold you tight

there's nothing that can harm you in the lonely night

I'll come to you and keep you safe and warm

Yes, so strong my love

You're my everything

I live upon the land and see the sky above

I'll swim within oceans sweet and warm

There's no storm my love

(Repeat)

I really love this song...u're my everything...santa esmeralda....lirik dia betul2 menyentuh hatiku....keh3...kalaulah ada someone dedicate lagu nie kat aku...bahagianye rase....hahaha....ini sudah lebih maaaaa.....:P

Masih berharap ke??

haha....ntahlah...buat mase sekarang mls den nk pikir....insyaAllah kalau dah jodoh...dgn sape2 pon kita x tahu kan...mgkin sekarang nie suka kat org tu...crush kat nie...sayang kat si polan tu....kita x tahu ape yg tertulis di luth mahfuz....Allah mencipta makhluknya berpasang-pasangan...

Ada perasaan lagi ke kat dia..??

satu soalan yg pernah di tanya...haha..susah woo nk lupa.......mmg tetap akan sentiasa igt hingga akhir hayat....hehe...cuma pandai2 lah kawal perasaan tu...bagi aku sekarang biarlah kekal sebagai seorang sahabat...itu lebih baik....

Bahagia ke hidup sekarang??

bahagia...sebab...adelah..hehe..cukuplah aku cakap benda ni sedikit sebanyak dpt menghilangkan rasa nk marah n serabut terhadap sesuatu yg membuatkan aku dah perit utk buat baik ngn orang...huhu...terima kasih la byk2....sbb wat aku lupakan sekejap kesedihan....aku rasa enjoy ngn hidup aku...walaupun byk dugaan tika nie yg perlu ak hadapi...

n now...i hope that i can be strong and patient to face this kind of situation that make me really anger...i'm also wish that they will realize it n replace the bad one to be good...

note: tak sabar nk tggu mama ngn abah datang esok...hopefully perjalanan dorg selamat...amin....jumpe kat pesta konvo UM yuk........